Tell someone

Tell someone you love them today, hug them a little tighter and feel them here a little longer

Somebody STOP ME!!

I just can't help myself, there is way too
much pretty going on here!
Are those skulls on the side?
Why "yes" they are,
thank you for noticing.


Thanks to Zappos, I am
again wearing some
kick ass new doc's.

Shut Up Mo' Fo'

I am so sick of people and their negative comments. True, I am by far not Ms. Merry Sunshine, but seriously, SHUT IT!

Why is it there are people who have to have an opinion on anything you may be doing in your life, and strike it down hard? I have no idea why certain people believe they have any right to have a say with their 'so called' vast knowledge that begins to make you question yourself and the nature of your actions. I say no more! I am taking a step back and taking control of my life and my actions-no matter what your opinion is about it!

The Biggest Loser audition tape is in the mail, despite what you may think!

Jealous?

Look what is adorning MY feet this afternoon after the UPS guy arrived!

Tiners Day Gifts

As usual, Gabe and I followed our tradition of making each others Valentines Day gifts. It is our way of not falling for a made up holiday in order to show each other we are in love.

I made him an 'XO Box' that looked like his Xbox that we just shipped away for repairs. I thought he would find it amusing, however, he just thought I was being mean....sad! Well, he did 'technically' follow the rules by making me a macaroni necklace, which is mighty classy I must say. I have been wearing it, and when people stop me and say, "Oh, did your kids make that for you?" I get to grin widely and say, "No, my husband did" They look a little perplexed by my answer. He also gave me a card with a $25.00 itunes card in it (not following the rules) and he made me a tattoo fund jar with $ 75.00 to get my sleeve going. We need to get this bitch done!!!

He cheated, he spent money which is a no-no, but I will accept it, as it came from him, my Romeo.

Not good

I am trying, I really am
I look for the answer
and end up with nothing
The darkness is getting bigger
and I have no will

Weekend Happenings

Friday was the first day this week I wasn't working overtime (blasted W-2's), so I was really looking forward to being home. Kim came over with her two nieces and two nephews and we had a sleepover. Are you crazy you ask? Including Zane, we had 5 kids under 4 years old. I can tell you with all honesty, it was way better than working late....that's for sure.

Saturday I went to a baby shower for Minya, Chako's sister. Later that night Kim and I went to The Bravery concert at In The Venue. There was ample amount of energy there, let me tell you. I think my favorite part was the 5 frat brothers wearing Abercrombie hoodies that were trying to prove to everyone around them that they were wasted, so what better way to do that than all dry hump each others legs with their tongues hanging out! Grrr.......

I know, I know, I live an exciting life.

Cover up boys!

I find the fact that they have a clearance section really interesting!

http://www.condomjungle.com/Default.asp?Redirected=Y

Deang....I'm just sayin'

More than half my life....from this day forward

Today is an all too important day for me. Gabe and I started dating 16 years ago today, which means from this day forward, I have had this amazing man with me for over half my life.

A few months after we started dating, he gave me picture of an old couple laughing together holding hands on the street. He told me when he gave it to me he thought of us growing old together when he looked at it.

I still have that picture.

Happy New Year Bitches!!

'Nuf Said!

I don't see what anyone else can see in anyone else...but you

I finally saw 'Juno' today, and what a great movie.

The whole teen pregnancy subject has been on my mind a lot lately thanks to a few family members whom I suppose think it is open invitation to take jabs at me even 15 years after the fact. I have been completely down on it, and seeing this movie brought up a few feelings which could not have been predicted. For some reason I could not stop crying. Even at the moments I found funny, I somehow I went back 15 years ago and felt myself experiencing the same thing all over again.

I have a great life. A husband who rules my world, children I adore more than anything, and I know none of it would have been possible without Adison. She started our family, she is where it all began. With that said, it didn't make it easy to grow up so fast and miss out on years of adolescence. I feel like I really put myself last for so long that I am not sure what it would be like to think of myself before others. There were moments of needing acceptance while trying to be in dependant in the movie that I could totally identify with. I am not sure if anyone who hasn't been through it would have even noticed. I truly felt this character. I loved her quick wit and admired her way of having a solution to all things happening.

I think falling in love when you are 16 years old seems unreal to most people. It even seems silly to me having a teenage daughter that she could meet someone this young who she could spend her life with. But I did. I found someone at the age of 16 who completed me so much, and am lucky enough to still have him at the age of 32.

Go see the movie, you wont regret it. It also has a killer soundtrack.

Best Christmas....EVER!!

What an awesome Christmas. I have been dreading this holiday for months. All the bullshit shopping, wondering what to get everyone, and if it is good enough. I had in mind what to get the kids, but other than that, I had no desire to even look for anyone else. After working a long day on Christmas Eve, I really started to feel it. Coming home to the kids, looking forward to the dinner with Gabe's family that night, then staying up late with Gabe after the kids had gone to bed just seemed perfect.

The kids actually slept in until 8:00, so Gabe and I had a few hours of sleep before the big day. My parents both came over to watch them open their presents. I was amazed at how truly happy and grateful the kids were. Not even one frowny face when a gift was opened, NOT even when it was underwear!! Everyone seemed to be happy and content. Just perfect.

We went over to my Mom's that afternoon for dinner with the rest of the family, which was equally awesome. After the rough year my Mom had with her health, it was so neat to see her in the Christmasiest of all Christmas moods possible. (Is that even a word? -Christmasiest.....hmmmm....whatever) Gabe went and grabbed the new guitar hero game and xbox 360 Noah got for Christmas, and had the whole family completely enthralled in the game. They were getting as excited watching it being played as the ones playing it. I totally fucked up 'Anarchy in the UK-----what a pitiful punk rocker I ended up being. Looking back on it, I just can't believe what a fucking awesome day it was, especially how I have been feeling lately.

Best parts of Christmas were-

Hearing Noah running up and down the hall after seeing Santa had been here

Zane giving himself whip lash ridding his new horse....he looked as if he were going to fly right off the thing

Addie just being sweet....it is a rare occasion lately

Watching A Christmas Story 5 times from Christmas Eve until Christmas Day

Staying up with Gabe until 3:00 in the morning putting together toys

Warm apple pie with cheese

Rain boots with skulls

Snowing Christmas Eve until Christmas morning

Perception of my obsession

It rips me up
It claws at my soul
It consumes me
Oh GOD how it fucking consumes me!!
My every thought revolves around its ever growing existence
If I only I could make it stop

Excited to go to the sneak preview of 'JUNO', but all we got was this lousy t-shirt

I was all excited to go see Juno, as I have been following Diablo Cody ever since Gabe and I bought her book Candy Girl and read it together on a flight back from Virginia almost two years ago. I am very curious to see her take on a teen pregnancy storyline, since, as you know, I myself was a teen parent. I was even more excited to see that it wasn't going to contain the usual after school special drama involving school drop outs, living on the streets, or life wasted by a huge decision too big for most adults, let alone a young kid with their whole future ahead of them.

After coming to the sad realization that we didn't have anyone to watch the boys, Gabe took Addie for a daddy-daughter date. I was jealous, but super excited to hear Gabe's perception of the movie. Well, after several text message exchanges involving the loooong ass line they were in, no fucking hot chocolate left, and free t-shirts, they were anxious to bid me far well as they were the next in line to be seated.

Sold Out, all full.

What the fuck. Seriously, that was a huge disappointment. At least they got free t-shirts. I guess I will have to wait until it hits the big screen. Like I wasn't going to see it there anyways.

Christmas Music

Last night I took the kiddos out looking at twinkly lights, and I had a sudden urge to stick on some Christmas music. Well, I found two radio stations that were playing blissful carols, and let me tell you, I would have rather been masturbating with a cactus than listening to the god awful tunes that were streaming through the speakers. Maybe it is Utah, maybe it is Christmas in general, but where is the diversity, where is the love/hate relationship that exists with the holidays. Christmas is not always the sweet perfection the songwriters would like you to believe- where is the greed, the gluttony, the absurdity?

I came home and put on The Reverend Horton Heats, We Three Kings right away. All Christmas music should be like that. Something you could sing along with, not roll your eyes to. Something you can FUCK to, not make love to, something you can enjoy and not want to stab at your ears with a sharp object. Okay, okay, okay, they are just covers of Christmas classics, but they are sooooo much better.

Bah Humbug!

My Space Whore

I did it, against all my beliefs, I now have a myspace page. I have really enjoyed looking at peoples profiles and laughing my ass off!!

http://www.myspace.com/beepersneeper

Not much to look at, very basic.

You'll Never Make It!

We left Friday for Las Vegas so Gabe could run yet another marathon. Holy shit, the dude is nuts. The drive down there sucked when we hit some bad weather, but after Gabe took the wheel, I felt much safer. Ahh, my knight in shining armor.

Once there, we did a quick wash of the ol' p.t.a. so we could head over to the House of Blues to see Social Distortion. It was kick ass. Social D is always awesome in concert.

Hey Melissa, he was wondering if you want some weed. Inside joke, sorry about that.

Saturday we left for the runners expo where Melissa and I get to pretend we are as awesome as Gabe is and stop at all the booths to discuss marathon training, healthy eating tips, etc., etc. In reality, I am just there to grab as many free samples as I can before thy give me the ol' up and down and realize I am not in any shape to be running a marathon. Hey, wait a minute.....

After that we headed over to the Bodies exhibit. I was very much against going. I get a little dizzy when looking or talking about about medical issues, so the thought of looking at bodies that have been preserved was not all that appealing to me. I was so wrong. It was the most interesting thing I have ever seen. I can not believe what complicated creatures we are. Later that night I got my drink on in the hotel. I really didn't realize how much I had drank until my words were getting a little slurry and I was not making much sense.

The next morning, Gabe left for the marathon, and we packed up so we could meet him at the first cheer spot. Once we met him at mile 7, we were around Freemont Street in the old yucky part of Vegas. There were a bunch of homeless guys yelling stuff at the runners. Our favorites were-

"You'll never make it!"

"Hey, your going the wrong way!"

"I know how long a marathon is!"

"I heard a happy little story about a girl who killed herself"

After the race, we got us some In and Out Burger then hit the road. Needless to say, Melissa and I did not run the Santa 5k we said we would. Like I said.....needless to say!

Virginia is for Lovers

Here are a few pictures from our trip to Virginia. I swear to God I saved some of Noah and Zane playing, but apparently I am a bad Mom and my second child has not been represented. More of Noah to come.

My favorite thing to say was, "Come on Mom, get in your chair, let's push you around some more." There were a few time I let her go down a hill without me holding onto her,

but I always managed to catch her.

It was fun to hear her scream at me as she realized in pure terror there was nothing

she could do. Evil, evil child.

Dad (Gabe's), Me and Gabe standing in front of Victory Monument in Yorktown.

Addie in a tunnel. Not sure why, but whatever.

A close up that isn't so cute, but hey, I have to let you see my not so pretty side ONCE in awhile!

A Late Birthday Wish To Me!!

I hope this year is better than the last twelve months.

You know, it will be because 32 is soooo much better than 31.

I am way more mature now, that's it, I now look at life through grown up eyes.

Nikki made me this kick ass cake that was so chocolaty, I thought I was going to die, seriously, DIE from chocolate.

I can only think of one other thing that would be better to do rather than eating chocolate

when I die, but we do not need to mention what that would be.

(hey Gabe, wink,wink)

As I mentioned before, I am more mature now. With that in mind, the following picture was taken before my birthday, so it doesn't count.

I was imitating my cousin Katie as we went through a tunnel that was....gasp....under water!! She is terrified of tunnels!! She would be much prettier than I am going through that tunnel, and would most likely be wearing something pink and sparkly!

I am not sure why I posted that on this particular blog entry.

Oh yeah, it's my blog so I can do whatever the fuck I want!

Note: I would like to thank the Minnesota Vikings for not only losing on my Birthday, but being shut out by them in Green Bay. Way to go team, way to show your appretiation to your fans. Thanks!