Are you fucking kidding me? As I lay here with ice on you, I wonder what the hell you are thinking. I imagine it is somewhere along the lines as, "Hey, do you know what I think would be funny?" "If I decided to now cause Heather pain since she is on the rebound from the last surgery and she is gearing up for some good stuff."
Ha ha ha knee, you are hilarious. You know what else you are? A fucking evil bastard, so BITE ME!
Yours truly,
Heather
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
P.B.R. and Cinnamon Bears if ya Finish!!
Yes, it's true. Gabe has not yet reached his level of sadistic behavior, so he ran his 9th Marathon. I can not believe he has done 9 already.
I think he is a pretty awesome mother trucker!
Z-Man loves his Daddy. 
Noah looking handsome and windblown.
More Cowbell. I wrote this sign before I even knew he had written it on his race number.
Despite what the homeless in Las Vegas think of marathon runners, we totally believe in Gabe!
Nikki and Goonie waiting for Gabe.
It has recently been brought to my attention that I may not be the supportive wife as I have been in the past. Gabe has started to think that I view his marathons as more of a pain in the ass, and not as an accomplishment of a lifetime, let alone 9 times over.
It isn't true. He has more drive and determination than anyone I have ever met, and I could not be more proud of him. I have serious pride telling people that he is a runner, and I look at him as unstoppable. I look up to him, and I am honored to be by his side as he takes on this monster of a task, and kick it's ass every time.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
10 miles with a helmet
I got my ass up this morning and put it on my bike. I met Uncle Mike over at the Jordan River Trail and we rode together. Hmmm, where do I start??
I didn't take my ipod, but I did turn it up way loud in the truck on the way there and blasted 'Too Drunk Too Fuck" by The Dead Kennedys before I got started. I thought it might get my adrenaline up a little bit. Punk music always gets me stoked for just about anything.
I, of course, am waaaay out of shape. Really, you ask? Why yes, I am. I guess my obvious physical appearance wouldn't lead you to believe so, but I am. I did really good for awhile, then at one point I lost my footing while changing gears when going up a slight incline. I recovered, but after that, I felt behind. Mike was nice enough to wait for me, or at least not act too annoyed when my sorry ass caught up with him.
I wore a helmet, at Gabe's request. Imagine that, I am not to be trusted on a moving object without protective head gear on. I am actually surprised Gabe doesn't make me wear one while driving in a car! Oh shit, shouldn't have said that.......I probably gave him a few ideas. I do believe that I was the only one this morning wearing a helmet, other than the adorable 4 year olds riding their bikes with training wheels and a stuffed fucking puppy in the basket. I felt like people passed me half expecting me to have drool coming out of the side of my mouth because I was 'special'.
Well, I did make it 10 miles. 10 miles is not bad in my opinion since I have not physically been on my bike in 2 years. I did lie to my physical therapist about being on one, but lying and doing are two entirely different things, or so I have been told.
I'll keep you updated on my progress. Who knows, maybe by the end of this week I will have gone 11 miles! Whoa, dream big!!!
I didn't take my ipod, but I did turn it up way loud in the truck on the way there and blasted 'Too Drunk Too Fuck" by The Dead Kennedys before I got started. I thought it might get my adrenaline up a little bit. Punk music always gets me stoked for just about anything.
I, of course, am waaaay out of shape. Really, you ask? Why yes, I am. I guess my obvious physical appearance wouldn't lead you to believe so, but I am. I did really good for awhile, then at one point I lost my footing while changing gears when going up a slight incline. I recovered, but after that, I felt behind. Mike was nice enough to wait for me, or at least not act too annoyed when my sorry ass caught up with him.
I wore a helmet, at Gabe's request. Imagine that, I am not to be trusted on a moving object without protective head gear on. I am actually surprised Gabe doesn't make me wear one while driving in a car! Oh shit, shouldn't have said that.......I probably gave him a few ideas. I do believe that I was the only one this morning wearing a helmet, other than the adorable 4 year olds riding their bikes with training wheels and a stuffed fucking puppy in the basket. I felt like people passed me half expecting me to have drool coming out of the side of my mouth because I was 'special'.
Well, I did make it 10 miles. 10 miles is not bad in my opinion since I have not physically been on my bike in 2 years. I did lie to my physical therapist about being on one, but lying and doing are two entirely different things, or so I have been told.
I'll keep you updated on my progress. Who knows, maybe by the end of this week I will have gone 11 miles! Whoa, dream big!!!
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Not knowing where to start, or what to say
Life had really been insane lately.
Noah turned 9 on Sunday, Addie turns 15 tomorrow, and things will never be the same for our family.
How can one 4:00 in the morning phone call change so many lives? I have come to look at life so differently in the past two weeks. I see it as a gift I am lucky to have, yet at the same time, it is so fucking unfair. I am at a loss as to how things work, where you go from here, how to look at things as any other way but fucked up. I literally ache for Mike, Obie and Nikki. I am so sad to see such sorrow brought to a family who has experienced so much already.
I look at my kids and feel I have to remind them everyday that their Aunt Debby loved them for fear one day they will not remember, mainly Zane, since he is so young. He looks at her picture and says, "My Aunt Debby loves me, and I miss her." He really doesn't understand what any of this means, but he hears people talking about her and it is the only response he has. I know for the rest of us there are so many awesome memories that we will always have, but there are times I want a re-do. I want to do things we talked about, even just going out with my friend Jenny for drinks. We thought we had all the time in the world. Why would we think any differently? Jenny and I have definitely become closer from this. We were drifting apart a lot, but we both had so much love for Debby, we have found comfort with each other during this.
I am still in shock I think. I still don't believe it. I can close my eyes and hear the doctor....word for word, say it, but it still has not registered. How can it?
Reminders of Debby-
Margaritas
"It's the best"
Dancing in the kitchen
Taking care of Noah
Stuffing for Thanksgiving
Sunglasses
Crocs
Bringing a flask to dinner to 'spruce up our drinks'
Hippie
Birkenstocks
Particular
Nordstrom
Listening
Chicken Noodle Soup with chicken and celery picked out
Toast cut into 4 squares
"Mmmm kay"
Love, love, so much love!
Love you Aunt Debby!!
Noah turned 9 on Sunday, Addie turns 15 tomorrow, and things will never be the same for our family.
How can one 4:00 in the morning phone call change so many lives? I have come to look at life so differently in the past two weeks. I see it as a gift I am lucky to have, yet at the same time, it is so fucking unfair. I am at a loss as to how things work, where you go from here, how to look at things as any other way but fucked up. I literally ache for Mike, Obie and Nikki. I am so sad to see such sorrow brought to a family who has experienced so much already.
I look at my kids and feel I have to remind them everyday that their Aunt Debby loved them for fear one day they will not remember, mainly Zane, since he is so young. He looks at her picture and says, "My Aunt Debby loves me, and I miss her." He really doesn't understand what any of this means, but he hears people talking about her and it is the only response he has. I know for the rest of us there are so many awesome memories that we will always have, but there are times I want a re-do. I want to do things we talked about, even just going out with my friend Jenny for drinks. We thought we had all the time in the world. Why would we think any differently? Jenny and I have definitely become closer from this. We were drifting apart a lot, but we both had so much love for Debby, we have found comfort with each other during this.
I am still in shock I think. I still don't believe it. I can close my eyes and hear the doctor....word for word, say it, but it still has not registered. How can it?
Reminders of Debby-
Margaritas
"It's the best"
Dancing in the kitchen
Taking care of Noah
Stuffing for Thanksgiving
Sunglasses
Crocs
Bringing a flask to dinner to 'spruce up our drinks'
Hippie
Birkenstocks
Particular
Nordstrom
Listening
Chicken Noodle Soup with chicken and celery picked out
Toast cut into 4 squares
"Mmmm kay"
Love, love, so much love!
Love you Aunt Debby!!
Friday, March 21, 2008
Tell someone
Tell someone you love them today, hug them a little tighter and feel them here a little longer
Monday, March 17, 2008
Somebody STOP ME!!
I just can't help myself, there is way toomuch pretty going on here!
Are those skulls on the side?
Why "yes" they are,
thank you for noticing.
Thanks to Zappos, I am
again wearing some
kick ass new doc's.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Shut Up Mo' Fo'
I am so sick of people and their negative comments. True, I am by far not Ms. Merry Sunshine, but seriously, SHUT IT!
Why is it there are people who have to have an opinion on anything you may be doing in your life, and strike it down hard? I have no idea why certain people believe they have any right to have a say with their 'so called' vast knowledge that begins to make you question yourself and the nature of your actions. I say no more! I am taking a step back and taking control of my life and my actions-no matter what your opinion is about it!
The Biggest Loser audition tape is in the mail, despite what you may think!
Why is it there are people who have to have an opinion on anything you may be doing in your life, and strike it down hard? I have no idea why certain people believe they have any right to have a say with their 'so called' vast knowledge that begins to make you question yourself and the nature of your actions. I say no more! I am taking a step back and taking control of my life and my actions-no matter what your opinion is about it!
The Biggest Loser audition tape is in the mail, despite what you may think!
Monday, February 18, 2008
Tiners Day Gifts
As usual, Gabe and I followed our tradition of making each others Valentines Day gifts. It is our way of not falling for a made up holiday in order to show each other we are in love.
I made him an 'XO Box' that looked like his Xbox that we just shipped away for repairs. I thought he would find it amusing, however, he just thought I was being mean....sad! Well, he did 'technically' follow the rules by making me a macaroni necklace, which is mighty classy I must say. I have been wearing it, and when people stop me and say, "Oh, did your kids make that for you?" I get to grin widely and say, "No, my husband did" They look a little perplexed by my answer. He also gave me a card with a $25.00 itunes card in it (not following the rules) and he made me a tattoo fund jar with $ 75.00 to get my sleeve going. We need to get this bitch done!!!
He cheated, he spent money which is a no-no, but I will accept it, as it came from him, my Romeo.
I made him an 'XO Box' that looked like his Xbox that we just shipped away for repairs. I thought he would find it amusing, however, he just thought I was being mean....sad! Well, he did 'technically' follow the rules by making me a macaroni necklace, which is mighty classy I must say. I have been wearing it, and when people stop me and say, "Oh, did your kids make that for you?" I get to grin widely and say, "No, my husband did" They look a little perplexed by my answer. He also gave me a card with a $25.00 itunes card in it (not following the rules) and he made me a tattoo fund jar with $ 75.00 to get my sleeve going. We need to get this bitch done!!!
He cheated, he spent money which is a no-no, but I will accept it, as it came from him, my Romeo.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Not good
I am trying, I really am
I look for the answer
and end up with nothing
The darkness is getting bigger
and I have no will
I look for the answer
and end up with nothing
The darkness is getting bigger
and I have no will
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Weekend Happenings
Friday was the first day this week I wasn't working overtime (blasted W-2's), so I was really looking forward to being home. Kim came over with her two nieces and two nephews and we had a sleepover. Are you crazy you ask? Including Zane, we had 5 kids under 4 years old. I can tell you with all honesty, it was way better than working late....that's for sure.
Saturday I went to a baby shower for Minya, Chako's sister. Later that night Kim and I went to The Bravery concert at In The Venue. There was ample amount of energy there, let me tell you. I think my favorite part was the 5 frat brothers wearing Abercrombie hoodies that were trying to prove to everyone around them that they were wasted, so what better way to do that than all dry hump each others legs with their tongues hanging out! Grrr.......
I know, I know, I live an exciting life.
Saturday I went to a baby shower for Minya, Chako's sister. Later that night Kim and I went to The Bravery concert at In The Venue. There was ample amount of energy there, let me tell you. I think my favorite part was the 5 frat brothers wearing Abercrombie hoodies that were trying to prove to everyone around them that they were wasted, so what better way to do that than all dry hump each others legs with their tongues hanging out! Grrr.......
I know, I know, I live an exciting life.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Cover up boys!
I find the fact that they have a clearance section really interesting!
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Saturday, January 05, 2008
Thursday, January 03, 2008
More than half my life....from this day forward
Today is an all too important day for me. Gabe and I started dating 16 years ago today, which means from this day forward, I have had this amazing man with me for over half my life.
A few months after we started dating, he gave me picture of an old couple laughing together holding hands on the street. He told me when he gave it to me he thought of us growing old together when he looked at it.
I still have that picture.
A few months after we started dating, he gave me picture of an old couple laughing together holding hands on the street. He told me when he gave it to me he thought of us growing old together when he looked at it.
I still have that picture.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Sunday, December 30, 2007
I don't see what anyone else can see in anyone else...but you
I finally saw 'Juno' today, and what a great movie.
The whole teen pregnancy subject has been on my mind a lot lately thanks to a few family members whom I suppose think it is open invitation to take jabs at me even 15 years after the fact. I have been completely down on it, and seeing this movie brought up a few feelings which could not have been predicted. For some reason I could not stop crying. Even at the moments I found funny, I somehow I went back 15 years ago and felt myself experiencing the same thing all over again.
I have a great life. A husband who rules my world, children I adore more than anything, and I know none of it would have been possible without Adison. She started our family, she is where it all began. With that said, it didn't make it easy to grow up so fast and miss out on years of adolescence. I feel like I really put myself last for so long that I am not sure what it would be like to think of myself before others. There were moments of needing acceptance while trying to be in dependant in the movie that I could totally identify with. I am not sure if anyone who hasn't been through it would have even noticed. I truly felt this character. I loved her quick wit and admired her way of having a solution to all things happening.
I think falling in love when you are 16 years old seems unreal to most people. It even seems silly to me having a teenage daughter that she could meet someone this young who she could spend her life with. But I did. I found someone at the age of 16 who completed me so much, and am lucky enough to still have him at the age of 32.
Go see the movie, you wont regret it. It also has a killer soundtrack.
The whole teen pregnancy subject has been on my mind a lot lately thanks to a few family members whom I suppose think it is open invitation to take jabs at me even 15 years after the fact. I have been completely down on it, and seeing this movie brought up a few feelings which could not have been predicted. For some reason I could not stop crying. Even at the moments I found funny, I somehow I went back 15 years ago and felt myself experiencing the same thing all over again.
I have a great life. A husband who rules my world, children I adore more than anything, and I know none of it would have been possible without Adison. She started our family, she is where it all began. With that said, it didn't make it easy to grow up so fast and miss out on years of adolescence. I feel like I really put myself last for so long that I am not sure what it would be like to think of myself before others. There were moments of needing acceptance while trying to be in dependant in the movie that I could totally identify with. I am not sure if anyone who hasn't been through it would have even noticed. I truly felt this character. I loved her quick wit and admired her way of having a solution to all things happening.
I think falling in love when you are 16 years old seems unreal to most people. It even seems silly to me having a teenage daughter that she could meet someone this young who she could spend her life with. But I did. I found someone at the age of 16 who completed me so much, and am lucky enough to still have him at the age of 32.
Go see the movie, you wont regret it. It also has a killer soundtrack.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Best Christmas....EVER!!
What an awesome Christmas. I have been dreading this holiday for months. All the bullshit shopping, wondering what to get everyone, and if it is good enough. I had in mind what to get the kids, but other than that, I had no desire to even look for anyone else. After working a long day on Christmas Eve, I really started to feel it. Coming home to the kids, looking forward to the dinner with Gabe's family that night, then staying up late with Gabe after the kids had gone to bed just seemed perfect.
The kids actually slept in until 8:00, so Gabe and I had a few hours of sleep before the big day. My parents both came over to watch them open their presents. I was amazed at how truly happy and grateful the kids were. Not even one frowny face when a gift was opened, NOT even when it was underwear!! Everyone seemed to be happy and content. Just perfect.
We went over to my Mom's that afternoon for dinner with the rest of the family, which was equally awesome. After the rough year my Mom had with her health, it was so neat to see her in the Christmasiest of all Christmas moods possible. (Is that even a word? -Christmasiest.....hmmmm....whatever) Gabe went and grabbed the new guitar hero game and xbox 360 Noah got for Christmas, and had the whole family completely enthralled in the game. They were getting as excited watching it being played as the ones playing it. I totally fucked up 'Anarchy in the UK-----what a pitiful punk rocker I ended up being. Looking back on it, I just can't believe what a fucking awesome day it was, especially how I have been feeling lately.
Best parts of Christmas were-
Hearing Noah running up and down the hall after seeing Santa had been here
Zane giving himself whip lash ridding his new horse....he looked as if he were going to fly right off the thing
Addie just being sweet....it is a rare occasion lately
Watching A Christmas Story 5 times from Christmas Eve until Christmas Day
Staying up with Gabe until 3:00 in the morning putting together toys
Warm apple pie with cheese
Rain boots with skulls
Snowing Christmas Eve until Christmas morning
The kids actually slept in until 8:00, so Gabe and I had a few hours of sleep before the big day. My parents both came over to watch them open their presents. I was amazed at how truly happy and grateful the kids were. Not even one frowny face when a gift was opened, NOT even when it was underwear!! Everyone seemed to be happy and content. Just perfect.
We went over to my Mom's that afternoon for dinner with the rest of the family, which was equally awesome. After the rough year my Mom had with her health, it was so neat to see her in the Christmasiest of all Christmas moods possible. (Is that even a word? -Christmasiest.....hmmmm....whatever) Gabe went and grabbed the new guitar hero game and xbox 360 Noah got for Christmas, and had the whole family completely enthralled in the game. They were getting as excited watching it being played as the ones playing it. I totally fucked up 'Anarchy in the UK-----what a pitiful punk rocker I ended up being. Looking back on it, I just can't believe what a fucking awesome day it was, especially how I have been feeling lately.
Best parts of Christmas were-
Hearing Noah running up and down the hall after seeing Santa had been here
Zane giving himself whip lash ridding his new horse....he looked as if he were going to fly right off the thing
Addie just being sweet....it is a rare occasion lately
Watching A Christmas Story 5 times from Christmas Eve until Christmas Day
Staying up with Gabe until 3:00 in the morning putting together toys
Warm apple pie with cheese
Rain boots with skulls
Snowing Christmas Eve until Christmas morning
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Perception of my obsession
It rips me up
It claws at my soul
It consumes me
Oh GOD how it fucking consumes me!!
My every thought revolves around its ever growing existence
If I only I could make it stop
It claws at my soul
It consumes me
Oh GOD how it fucking consumes me!!
My every thought revolves around its ever growing existence
If I only I could make it stop
Monday, December 17, 2007
Excited to go to the sneak preview of 'JUNO', but all we got was this lousy t-shirt
I was all excited to go see Juno, as I have been following Diablo Cody ever since Gabe and I bought her book Candy Girl and read it together on a flight back from Virginia almost two years ago. I am very curious to see her take on a teen pregnancy storyline, since, as you know, I myself was a teen parent. I was even more excited to see that it wasn't going to contain the usual after school special drama involving school drop outs, living on the streets, or life wasted by a huge decision too big for most adults, let alone a young kid with their whole future ahead of them.
After coming to the sad realization that we didn't have anyone to watch the boys, Gabe took Addie for a daddy-daughter date. I was jealous, but super excited to hear Gabe's perception of the movie. Well, after several text message exchanges involving the loooong ass line they were in, no fucking hot chocolate left, and free t-shirts, they were anxious to bid me far well as they were the next in line to be seated.
Sold Out, all full.
What the fuck. Seriously, that was a huge disappointment. At least they got free t-shirts. I guess I will have to wait until it hits the big screen. Like I wasn't going to see it there anyways.
After coming to the sad realization that we didn't have anyone to watch the boys, Gabe took Addie for a daddy-daughter date. I was jealous, but super excited to hear Gabe's perception of the movie. Well, after several text message exchanges involving the loooong ass line they were in, no fucking hot chocolate left, and free t-shirts, they were anxious to bid me far well as they were the next in line to be seated.
Sold Out, all full.
What the fuck. Seriously, that was a huge disappointment. At least they got free t-shirts. I guess I will have to wait until it hits the big screen. Like I wasn't going to see it there anyways.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Christmas Music
Last night I took the kiddos out looking at twinkly lights, and I had a sudden urge to stick on some Christmas music. Well, I found two radio stations that were playing blissful carols, and let me tell you, I would have rather been masturbating with a cactus than listening to the god awful tunes that were streaming through the speakers. Maybe it is Utah, maybe it is Christmas in general, but where is the diversity, where is the love/hate relationship that exists with the holidays. Christmas is not always the sweet perfection the songwriters would like you to believe- where is the greed, the gluttony, the absurdity?
I came home and put on The Reverend Horton Heats, We Three Kings right away. All Christmas music should be like that. Something you could sing along with, not roll your eyes to. Something you can FUCK to, not make love to, something you can enjoy and not want to stab at your ears with a sharp object. Okay, okay, okay, they are just covers of Christmas classics, but they are sooooo much better.
Bah Humbug!
I came home and put on The Reverend Horton Heats, We Three Kings right away. All Christmas music should be like that. Something you could sing along with, not roll your eyes to. Something you can FUCK to, not make love to, something you can enjoy and not want to stab at your ears with a sharp object. Okay, okay, okay, they are just covers of Christmas classics, but they are sooooo much better.
Bah Humbug!
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