So what!!

I hate it when people from Utah are on a Reality TV show! The local TV stations just eat it up and somehow their progress on any show takes priority over real issues like war, local tragedies or bastard politicians trying to fuck up our country.

I believe it all started with the Mormon chick from Real World New Orleans. I do not even remember her name, but I remember what horror it was that she shared a room with other male roommates. Oh, the immorality that must have gone on! She really disgraced her church and was kicked out of BYU. Hey honey, they did you a favor. They can not handle it when you young kids experience any kind of culture outside their own little quilting circle.

The next one I remember was Carmen Rasmussen. She was on American Idol when Clay Aiken was. I remember watching it just hoping she would be kicked off. Now they always have her at special events like Independence Day or Christmas gatherings. 'We have Utah's Idol here, Miss Carmen Rasmussen'....applause....cheer....worship her....Her wholesomeness makes me want to vomit!

Hmmm, we had Sean the CEO of Love Sac that won some millionaire show. We actually do their payroll, so we have a social tie there, but nonetheless, top news headline, 'Mormon Boy from Utah wins Millions!'

And most recently, we had Heather from the Biggest Loser. She was a real bitch. She is also one of our clients, but seriously, WHAT A BITCH!! Now I can say this, being a big girl and all, but every time they showed her get on the scale, I would laugh at her belly button and make a comment about how it made me want to go golfing. Actually, I stole that from Gabe, but it made me laugh every time!! But my favorite part of the whole thing was at the show finale, she shows up PREGNANT!! How typical, Mormon's like to replenish the species, ya' know? You did your church leaders proud Heather by showing the world just how fertile you are, God is really giving you extra points for that one! I personally think it was a cop-out. She knew she wasn't going to win, she really didn't show too much interest in the whole thing at the end.

I guess the new 'shock value' of reality TV is not to be promiscuous or gay, but to be a Mormon. Well, we have plenty of them here for you, so take them....PLEASE!!

If I lay here....

If I just lay here,
Will you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Does anything in the world sound better than that??

Will I ever be the same?

I am having more 'house building' issues.

Yesterday was a really bad day! It started off by receiving our loan documents, only to realize that our totals did not match. There totals were about $5,000.00 more than what mine show. I tried to go through and compare our documentation to find any differences. I realized that they had put some change orders in there that I was not even aware of and that were signed by someone else, NOT ME!! Isn't that forgery?? They not only added things to my loan which I had not approved, but they went back on there original flooring allowance from $1.20 sq. ft. to $1.00 sq. ft. That screwed us out of over a thousand dollars just by doing that. They said that they didn't make any money off our flooring, so they were going to charge us more. They aren't suppose to make money on our flooring, we did the fucking flooring ourselves!! They added garage door openers to our house charging us $900.00 for them! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? I could buy all of our neighbors garage door openers for that much. I never asked for them, he told me they were included in the base price of the house. Then my building rep., Luke said, "If you want to be difficult, I can go back and charge you for other things if you want!" FUCK YOU!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??

I had horrible chest pains yesterday, and I just lost it. Thank God Jenny was standing by with some clonapin for me. After two of those I was able to calm down and just cry instead of lose my mind.

I really wonder if I will ever be able to be the same person after all this. My kids are so out of there element, I wonder how long it will take to get them back to their normal lives. I do not feel anywhere near close to a real person anymore. It has drained me and broken my spirit. Luckily it has not effected my marriage. I have heard of so many people who's marriage falls apart after building a house together. That would just kill me!

I am sure everything will end up being okay. I just need to put it out of my mind, somehow.

Gingerbread Houses

Today we made gingerbread Houses. We had a blast! Here are the results of our hard work. note: Adison ate most of hers while she was making it.





Here is the one Zane and I made. As you can tell, the kid is a prodigy!





Next is Noah's. He made some awesome Gingerbread dudes. One is blind with a cane, and another has a guitar. ROCK ON!!





Hmmm, where do I begin? Addie and Gabe made quite the masterpiece. I think it greatly resembles the artist Pollock, what do you think?





Here is my Mom's and Aunt Corrie's. They had a few problems, to say the least. To be honost, I'm not really suprised. It was kinda like watching Dumb and Dumber.


I have a tummy ache from eating all the dang gingerbread. As Addie would say, "Oh Mylanta!!"

Not yet, maybe later.....

Sorry to have informed everyone of my upcoming surgery. I have canceled it and maybe reschedule at a later time. The stress of the house, along with Christmas, and various other reasons were making it too hard for me.

Thank you for all your well wishes, it really means a lot to me. Keep them tucked nicely in your pocket until I inform you of a new date within the next few months.

You guys rock, I love you all!!

Question

So......I have just come home from my work party, and I am a little tipsy to say the least. Any-who I was thinking just now, while going pee,...... if Britney Spears can have knee surgery, and be able to party like a Rock Star, and show off her terrible cooch to the world, I will be just fine right? My disabilty is just fine. it is temporary, and I will be okay, right, RIGHT?????

Pardon me while I have some more Merlot. I am drunk, I just attended a work party, and I would like some more Merlot.

You have no idea how many times I have had to re-tyoe this. I better send myself to bed.

DEANG!!

Update

Surgery will now be on Thursday, December 7th.

I will be on complete bedrest for 7 days with my leg in a CVV machine. Then after that it will be months of extensive therapy.

I wish I had my new house done so I could at least be laying in there with nothing to do. Instead, I will not be able to even go and see the house for awhile. I don't know, maybe that is a good thing!