Primary Childrens

Primary Childrens is doing their annual telethon to raise money for the hospital this weekend. Plese watch, and more importantly....PLEASE DONATE!!! I will be there answering phones, and I am told I will be on T.V. between 12-2 on Sunday and I will be sharing my story about Noah.

I don't think I need to explain to anyone what this hospital means to me. Without it, I would not have Noah, and that is unimaginable to me. It is hard to believe that any child has to face a life threatening health challenge, but I have been through it, and Noah has lived through it! He is beyond a miracle. From the moment he was born he was at this hospital, and for years later he has had numerous high risk surgeries and has continued to amaze everyone, including the medical professionals who have cared for him.

The motto of Primary Childrens says it all, "The Child First and Always"

The kid is adorable AND wearing skulls!

Charli Jane is getting so big!

That cute little skull shirt was from none other than.....myself....of course!

Blue and Pink

Okay, I must admit, I am not a fan of the blue. It was a much brighter blue in the bottle, but it kind of goes on dull and dark.

I look really pissed though....again! What, I can't smile at all, I always have to look like I could snap your dick off just with my stare?

Scary!

If I Were......

If I were.....

Skinnier, I could be more confident

If I were.....

Prettier, I would feel like I deserve the love of my husband

If I were.....

A better Mother, I would not get frustrated when things aren't perfect

If I were.....

Done with college, I would have a more rewarding career

If I were.....

Not so down on myself, I might achieve my goals

Only if, I were.....

Skinny Puppy Tickets

Who just won Skinny Puppy tickets? That's right, I DID!!

Fuck ya!

5' 8"

We just measured Goonie, she has officially measured in at 5'8".

Are you kidding me? How did she go from being my sweet little three year old that couldn't pronounce the letter 'f', to the big emotional wreck she is?

Going back to the mispronunciation- it was SO cute! She used to say

Sork when trying say Fork
Shower when trying to say Flower
etc..., etc... it was adorable!

Jerry Falwell T-shirt

OH DANG!!!!

Vinegar and Water

I just got my passport picture taken....I look like a total douche bag!

Mothers Day, good or bad, I survived!

Every year I have a Mothers Day brunch for My Mom, Gabe's Mom, Gabe's Grandma and the Aunts. It is something I love to do, even though it is Mothers Day, and technically I shouldn't be doing anything but sitting on my ass! Well, since every other weekend is devoted to sitting on my ass, this weekend......I cooked. I must admit, I had a very hard time this year. I could not get Noah and Adison to do anything but fight. They were absolutely ridiculous. They didn't have anything valid to fight over, they were just taunting each other. Every little thing I asked them to do was a struggle, and everything I asked them not to do was a fight. It was not even close to how I wanted to be spending my day. I had a lot of stuff clean and cook, and with Gabe at work, I had no help other than the kids, which as I said before, didn't help at all!! Right before everyone got here I had a meltdown. I sent both of them to their rooms and cried like crazy.

I also failed to mention the issue we had with Zane eating raw meat. Saturday we were grocery shopping at Sam's Club and I was grabbing something off a shelf and I looked up to see Zane had a sausage casing hanging out of his mouth saying, "Mmmmm, hot dog" He pulled a raw pork sausage through the plastic wrap and ate it. Oh my God, what do you do, we are talking about RAW PORK! Shit! So I hurried home and called poison control. They assured me that he more than likely would be fine, which he was. However, in the middle of all the chaos with the kids and getting brunch together, Zane was shitting constantly from the laxative we gave him to get the meat out of his system. Good lord, I was not kidding when I nicknamed our children the three ring circus.

Happy Mothers Day to me, Happy Mothers Day to me.......

The kids did make me some awesome gifts, and Gabe once again took care of his pirate wife. You know the scene in Pirates of the Caribbean where Captain Jack Sparrow is holding up a jar of dirt singing, 'I 've got a jar of dirt, I've got a jar of dirt' Well, Gabe gave me a big jar of dirt greatly resembling the one from the movie, wrote on it the same saying, and had a gift card shoved inside it. Good God does that man know what I like or what??

For brunch we had-

Quiche
Bacon
Sausage
Cheesy Potatoes
Belgium Waffles w/strawberries and fresh whip cream
Red Velvet Cupcakes (for dessert)

It was quite a day, but I must say, the kids totally redeemed themselves. This morning I was ready to trade them in until tonight when Addie and Noah started playing cute with each other and Zane snuggled up on the couch with me to watch pirates.

You know you want to hit that!

Ahhh, this girl is so fucked up, it is AWESOME!!

I actually tend to think she looks better in this picture.

Damn you Rock star........DAMN YOU!!!!

I am so addicted to Rock Star, it is ridiculous. I had an awesome streak recently where I went over 3 weeks without a single Rock Star. Anyone who knows me, knows that it is pretty damn good. Well, I went off the wagon like a fuckin' junky scoring some coke! In the last 24 hours, I have consumed 64oz. of this sweet nectar, and I could hardly sleep last night. I don't care, I would almost rather drink it than eat food. There must be some sort of intervention program out there to help me! C'mon, what kind of friends are you? No confrontation of the obvious obsession? Nothing? I am crying out for help for Gods sake, this is my plea for anyone who can help!

I am seriously kidding about wanting help, you take my fucking Rock Star away, you die, plain and simple!

** Oh, and on a side note---I am eating some popcorn, and I just lost about 4 kernels of it in my cleavage. Getting fat has its perks, its like I have a food storage container, right here on my chest.

Cutest Mom EVER!!

My Mom is off on a girls trip in New York right now. In fact, I will be picking her up from the airport later tonight. I can not think of a single person in this world that deserves a trip like that more than my Mom.

I keep getting funny random phone calls from the four women, only to tell me that my Mom is drunk and hilarious. She tries to get on the phone and convince me otherwise, but her slow slurred speech tells me a different story. It is awesome. I got a call from her friend Tracie yesterday, and she just wanted to tell me the following, "I am on Beaver Street-and I can not find a thing to eat!!" I then asked her if they had any pink taco stands anywhere, then she proceeded to try and convince me that I didn't get her joke. Oh, I am pretty sure I got your joke, I just don't think you got mine.

I can't wait to see her and hear about all the shit she did. I hope she bought me something with a pirate on it, that would totally make my day!

Not doing so good

You know how it feels to be doing really awesome at recovering from major knee surgery, even with the 'fuck up' on the stairs, only to go to physical therapy to learn that you infact do not RULE, but SUCK!!!!! I have lost some motion in my knee now, due to lack of exercises and swelling. If it doesn't start doing better, they are going to hook it up to some machine and zap it to try and get it back. I hope it doesn't come to that, but it isn't looking good. I had to do some new exercises that deal with stair work, squats, and standing on one leg balancing. After the third stair exercise, I was in tears. I have to do 40 at a time. The squats are near impossible, the pain is just incredible.

I was so excited that I was feeling better, I have not been limping, and I have cut my pain meds to just 1 a day instead of 2 every 4 hours. Well, I am back to limping, and the pain and swelling is really bad again.

I am frustrated that it isn't ever going to end. I am beginning to wonder, 'What is the point?' Maybe I am just being a baby, and maybe I have just hit a wall so hard that I actually feel like giving up. Giving up worries me. If anything in life is certain, I have always managed to disappoint myself.

G.G.

(What a lame picture!!)

OMG, Gilmore Girls was soooo good tonight. I am fucking crying like a god damn baby!! It is my show, it is my crack, it is one of the only shows, along with The Sopranos and Entourage, that I make sure I record and watch every week. My favorite is to watch it with Adison, it is our thing, and it will be our thing 4-eva.

I am seriously loving it, I watched it twice already since it aired tonight. I am so afraid the series will end and depress me. Oh well, I have all the seasons on DVD, so it is forever immortalized!

Loralai + Luke